Wednesday, February 21, 2007

here i am

i know... i intended to go and stay gone. but there have been a couple of times i really felt the need to come back. a couple of times when my soul was touched and i wanted to get it down somewhere, because i knew that if i didn't the thoughts would be lost to the ages.

and they were.

but this one, i must get down.

i realized that i was getting edgy, and i knew why, and i knew there was nothing i could do to stop it. so i got depressed, got self-destructive, and began throwing away everything that mattered to me. including you. but you pulled me back up, again, even though you were sinking too. and since you've come back, you have put a smile on my face and in my heart that's been gone since you left. my happiness, my sanity, my humanity, they seem to be tied to you. as long as i know you're there, i seem to be okay. i'll try not to be needy, try not to be a pest, and try to have the faith i should have had all along.

clumsy words, i know. but i trust you to understand.

thank you. *bows deeply in humble respect*

1 Comments:

Blogger kloqwerk said...

hey.

i know this is really late for a reply, but i'm glad we got it sorted. there's no one out thr that i can depend on the way i depend on u.

it's funny how strong our bond gets, despite the fact that our relationship is purely cyber. no voices, no faces, no touch. but u've shown me how reliable u are as a fren.

i look to u for help, for comfort, for a listening ear. n u've done well in being there. i hope u'll see me the way i see u. i'm always here whenever u need me.

all i ask is that u dun take my absence as neglect. pls do not be like the many who demand physical presence all the time. i'm with u spiritually, however dumb that sounds.

i miss u. n i promise to keep trying to keep in contact more often.

take care always,
pahlawan.

Tue Jun 12, 10:24:00 AM 2007  

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