here i am

i know... i intended to go and stay gone. but there have been a couple of times i really felt the need to come back. a couple of times when my soul was touched and i wanted to get it down somewhere, because i knew that if i didn't the thoughts would be lost to the ages.

and they were.

but this one, i must get down.

i realized that i was getting edgy, and i knew why, and i knew there was nothing i could do to stop it. so i got depressed, got self-destructive, and began throwing away everything that mattered to me. including you. but you pulled me back up, again, even though you were sinking too. and since you've come back, you have put a smile on my face and in my heart that's been gone since you left. my happiness, my sanity, my humanity, they seem to be tied to you. as long as i know you're there, i seem to be okay. i'll try not to be needy, try not to be a pest, and try to have the faith i should have had all along.

clumsy words, i know. but i trust you to understand.

thank you. *bows deeply in humble respect*