missing you

ok, well, I know you won't see this. but need to tell you anyway. i can list 10 good reasons why I'm wrong for you, and only one reason to still hope, if even a little. you should have the best, even tho i know that's not me. wouldn't ever want to slow you down, or be in your way, or become an embarrassment to you. so i wait quietly here, and you know it will never be too late if you happen to remember me. unless i come apart inside, die from the inside out. throw away all i hope, then all i have, then all i am. for awhile, for you, i was better than ever. but now i'm drowning, or maybe just fading away. like you said, i need to find my own happiness. but i'm so tired, maybe i should just go to sleep... i really miss you, and hope you get to rest, and hope your dreams are coming true. good night, precious one...